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This is another song that makes me cry (what a surprise!) :P.  This one, just like all of the others, has a good reason... The lyrics say a lot about Christ's love and willingness to be there for His children when they are in a dark place. I also personally believe that someone could feel this way for a friend or family member who is going through a hard time. So, it really just fills me with emotion when I hear it. Hehe I probably already posted it somewhere around EP lol :')


 

This song greets me every morning at 6am :)  



 

I can so relate to this song. 

 

I have a smile
Stretched from ear to ear
To see you walking down the road
We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
The world around us disappears

It's just you and me
On my island of hope
Breath between us, could be miles
Let me surround you
My sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you seek

Oh but everytime I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot
To tell you, I love you
And th' night's too long
And cold here, without you
But I grieve in my condition
For I cannot find the words to say
I need you so

Oh but everytime I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot
To tell you, I love you
And th' night's too long
And cold here, without you
I grieve in my condition
For I cannot find the words to say
I need you so 
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/sarah-mcLachlan-lyrics/i-love-you-lyrics.html -]

This song is so sweet, it makes me cry. It reminds me of somebody. 

 
My mood: extremely hopeless

I really needed to hear this song tonight. I am glad I came across it in my itunes library. :)

You Are Ringo Starr You are fun loving and carefree. No matter how much success you've had, you never take yourself too seriously.
You have a good sense of humor, and you like to goof around. You're more than willing to make fun of yourself.

You are generous and caring. You feel like you've been given a lot in your life, and you're willing to give back.
You do the right thing because it feels good. You don't need your flattery or your ego nurtured. 

I took a quiz on Blogthings and this was the result. :P

GO TEAM JACOB!

Look at you now just standing there
Like you think you're something
The lights are up
And the crowd is looking your way
Just waiting for what you have to say

So go ahead boy,
Give 'em a little taste of hypocrisy
And maybe a hint of blasphemy
Whatever you're preaching, it isn't me

You wanna walk with me?
Do ya? wanna walk with me?
Well if you love me
Then just love me
Don't you give me pretty words
Lay your life down at the altar
Let me see how serious you are

These people don't look to me no more
They've got their idols in various forms
With lust in their eyes
They crave for more
Take their place with the corporate carnivours
Whoa! keep your focus
Cuz the day will come
When everyone will give account
For what they've done
Make me proud
Make me proud my son

You wanna walk with me?
Do ya? wanna walk with me?
Well if you love me
Then just love me
Don't you give me pretty words
Lay your life down at the altar
Let me see how serious you are

Look at this broken world
Look at my children, oh
Look at this broken world
Look at my children, oh
Cuz they're already gone
Sing to me the love song
Look up!
Say your prayers on the steps of the capital
Look up!
Say your prayers on your knees
Look up!
Say your prayers
Oh!
Look up!
Say your prayers

You want it to be like you always thought it would
But all you seem to accomplish is the opposite

You wanna walk with me?
Do ya? wanna walk with me?
Well if you love me
Then just love me
Don't you give me pretty words
Lend your life down at the altar
Let me see how serious you are

Day 1. My professor for my first class (student ed) yelled in my face about financial aid. The professor for my second class (English) is gay and my classmates are making fun of him. I wish they wouldn't. I don't approve of his lifestyle but I also don't approve of being mean to him. I still didn't get my student id or my parking pass. 

Day 2. I woke up at six thirty in the morning to try and get to school by seven thirty to get a parking space. The school is thirty minutes away without traffic. There was traffic and lots of it.  My first professor of the day (world cultures) is alright except he accepts the theory of evolution and is trying to shove it down my throat. After class I attempt to eat lunch but am attacked by bees who think they might want a taste. The soda machine ate $3.50 worth of my money. While waiting outside my next classroom a gorgeous guy comes up to me and asks a simple question. I can't answer because I am overcome by anxiety. The girl next to me helped him instead. In class, my next professor of the day (math) was actually very nice... boring but nice... After class I stood on line to buy more books that I should have had. I still didn't get my parking pass or id. 


So... these are the short versions of my first two days of college. I hope everybody else had a much better first couple of days...

 

 Being single isn't fun. Yeah I know there are people out there that are completely happy being alone and I admire them for that. I on the other hand, cannot stand being single for another second! I feel as though my heart is in constant pain. All I can think about are the guys that have broken my heart and hope that the next one is the one that will put the pieces back together. I have been in this state of mind for several years now.At almost twenty years old, I've never had a real boyfriend. I know that I am young and my family says that I have my whole life ahead but I am sick and tired of hearing that! A few days ago, I posted a story that showed my feelings toward couples and how they act in public. It also showed a little bit of my jealousy toward them. My friend eyeno commented and left me the link to this story.....  

 Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thorough and exclusively. But God, to a Christian says, "No, not until you are satisfied and fulfilled and content with living loved by me alone". I love you, my child, and until you discover that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with me--exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing--one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you--just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things--keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I am. Keep learning and listening to the things that I tell you--you must wait.

Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have gotten or that I've given them. Don't look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away up at me, or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And, then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would ever dream. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even this very minute to have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with me and the life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me...and this is perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with myself. Know I love you utterly. I am almighty. Believe and be satisfied.

 After reading this I knew God must have wanted me to see and know what is expected of me before I can be in the relationship that I long for. I thanked eyeno for allowing me to read his story. God knew I needed to read those words. His timing is amazing.God also knew that we had to be friends so that He could work through eyeno to teach me a lesson. Trust me I am still trying to understand this whole thing. I sometimes can't understand why I still don't have what I want. God has His own time. He also has someone for me who will be wonderful and perfect for me. I just have to remember that for when I start feeling lonely and hopeless about love.I still cry every time I read those words. I know that God has wonderful things for everyone if they just love Him and believe in Him.   

So yesterday I finished my summer classes. I took my finals and I feel as though I failed miserably. The English final was alright but the speech final was terrible. I did everything right except for the actual speech. I began to cry toward the end and made a fool of myself. I can't believe this! 

Up on this hill, in this uncanny house
The wind makes this place creak, the lights they are flickering.
The moon she is lurking, the clock it stopped working
At a quarter past three.
There's something dancing here in the shadows
And I wish it were us.

You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight.
You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight.
Tonight.
Tonight.

Can't get your memory, off of my mind.
Just want your heartbeat, on top of my mine.
There's something dancing, here in the shadows
And I wish it were us.

You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight.
You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight.
Tonight.
Tonight.

Up on this hill, in this uncanny house.
Your spirit I can't see, but I still believe
I can feel your breath on me.

You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight.
You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight.
Tonight.
Tonight.

Up on this hill, in this uncanny house. 

Wow! Two classes in one month!  I can't believe I'm almost finished. The summer "semester" really was intense. The professors covered an entire semester in each class! I feel as if my brain has been sucked of all possible knowledge and energy... I wonder what the fall semester has in store. 0.O  Well... at least I will have some kind of summer after this week. I'm going to Disney World!!!! I can't wait 

I have noticed that a lot of people would probably stop by my profile and label me a Jesus freak or something else offensive without getting to know me. Just by reading some of the titles of the groups out there I know what is going through your minds if you are that sort of person. You would automatically assume that just because I am trying to help you out or save you as it were, that I am the evil one. I am the religious idiot that needs to shut my mouth. Let me ask you something. Have you ever calmed down enough to just listen to what someone like me has to say? Why do you get so fired up? Are we doing something to physically hurt you by telling you the truth? Yes the truth can hurt emotionally. I definitely understand that. But, there is no reason to come back at us with evil on your tongue and what you call intelligence spewing at us with every word. I'm trying to understand something here. Why reject the truth? Is living a life of pain with just a few good moments here and there THAT attractive to you? Please do not think that I am trying to "p*** you off". That is not my intention. I am simply trying to understand you and hopefully get through to you. One more question, why do you think you can bring us down by studying the bible only to throw verses at us during a conversation ( that usually turns to an argument)...? There is no point really. Most of us know what the Bible says and what it means if we are true Christians.....  Remember, we are not judging you nor are we saying that WE are perfect by coming to you with Jesus. We are loving you. 

 

Matthew 7: 1-2 , 13-14

And, my sweet loving Christian friends, don't be rude or harsh when you share the love of the Lord. Always be persistent but, never overbearing. Jesus never forced Himself on anyone. I'm still learning that myself. :)

My mood: extremely amazing
My health: moderately well

Another one of my favorite songs. I think its a little more hardcore than some of the other songs I've posted but, definitely not as hardcore as some other stuff I've listened to.

 

Painting With Poetry from Ed Clark on Vimeo.

 

Love is a terrible art, it’s a hook in the heart
That can drag you on broken glass
And as you protest the shards in your flesh
The hook tears out your chest until you’re just a broken mess

 In your ocean I'm ankle deep 

I feel the waves crashing on my feet 
It's like I know where I need to be, but 
I can't figure out, I can't figure out 
Just how much air I will need to breathe 
When your wave crashes over me 
There's only one way to figure out 
But will you let me drown 
Will you let me drown 

Hey now, this is my desire 
Consume me like a fire 
'Cause I just want 
Something beautiful to touch me 
I know that I'm in reach 
'Cause I am down on my knees 
And waiting for 
Something beautiful 

Oh, oh, oh something beautiful 

And the water is rising quick 
And for years I was scared of it 
We can't be sure when it will subside 
So I won't leave your side 
No I can't leave your side 

Hey now, this is my desire 
Consume me like a fire 
'Cause I just want 
Something beautiful to touch me 
I know that I'm in reach 
'Cause I am down on my knees 
And waiting for 
Something beautiful 

Oh, oh, oh something beautiful (x2) 

In a day dream, I couldn't live like this 
I wouldn't stop until I found something beautiful 
When I wake up, knowing all I have 
Is still not what I need (something beautiful) 

Hey now, this is my desire 
Consume me like a fire 
'Cause I just want 
Something beautiful to touch me 
I know that I'm in reach 
'Cause I am down on my knees 
And waiting for 
Something beautiful 

Oh, oh, oh something beautiful (x2)